How dreams can come true!!
Laying out my mat on a sticky bar floor felt extremely surreal, this was a bar by night yoga studio by day, as strange as it seemed, it worked. From my first yoga class I knew yoga would be part of my life for the long haul. So I worked and went to yoga.
I fell into the corporate world completely by accident, taking an opportunity offered to me by my sister, 12 hours a week after college, it seemed easy enough and for me it was a sure way to get some cash to fulfil my dream to go travelling.
And that’s how it stayed, me in the corporate world earning cash to fund my travels, and I succeeded with 2 trips round the world under my belt and a yoga teaching qualification I was ready to start teaching and leave my corporate life behind me.
Well, on paper this sounded ideal however, in reality Jersey wasn’t quite ready for my yoga plans, I carried on teaching, however, it just didn’t feel like it was ever going anywhere. My now husband and I were living at my parents so we knew this couldn’t be forever, so a chance offering led me back into the corporate world once more.
It was only part time and I stayed true to my teaching by continuing, things were on the up, this time my job was paying my rent and allowing us to create a home. However, the hours started to increase and my teaching eventually disappeared, as I was either away on business or working till “stupid” O’clock. All I had was my own practice which thankfully got me through some really rough times, however, that also started to diminish.
By now we had bought our house and my role in the corporate world had changed from using it as a way for me to live the life I wanted, to now needing it to live full stop. It wasn’t all bad, my financial position meant I could travel to London and Australia to carry on my yoga training because I knew some day I would teach full time and I would say good bye to the corporate world forever, however, each year kept passing by and still I was there waiting on the next pay cheque.
Then one weekend I attended a workshop and was asked to visualise my self looking in the mirror at the person I wanted to be, in reality I was so far removed from the real me that I could do nothing except cry at the loss of who that person was and who I was now or thought I was. The decision had been made for me, I needed to get out and it needed to be sooner rather than later.
A year or two and a wedding later the time came, the decision was clear and my mind made up. In January 2015 I went into work knowing in a few weeks time I would be resigning and moving on with my life to teach. However, this was not how it was going to be, by pure chance the corporate world offered me a job that I really didn’t want to take so for the first time I said No. A compromise was had and 3 months later I left. Initially I felt cheated that I wasn’t in complete control of how I left the Corporate world, however I soon realised that it didn’t really matter, I was out and I was free.
So here I am, feeling more and more like my old self as each day passes. My passion for my teaching has increased ten fold and my time on my mat is now to explore my own journey rather than as a way to escape from one.
The Corporate world for me although not the world I wanted to live in, provided me with a life that allowed me to get to where I needed to be so for that I am thankful for it.
I’m not quite sure where I would be if I hadn’t discovered yoga in that bar by night studio by day but I’m so happy I did.